Monday, July 2, 2012

By Popular Demand

strike a pose, there's nothing to it
No, this is not the birth story.  We're still not quite ready for that trip down memory lane (here's a hint:  if there's another baby duck in the future, that birth story will most likely include the sentence, "I'll take the epidural" instead of "Just kill me now.").

Anyway, we can't stop staring at baby Caroline and thinking about how lucky we are.  Of course we miss Eliza, of course we wish we could have both our girls here.  But the truth is that I'm aware every moment of every day that there's no rule that says we get have anything we want, let alone everything.  We're lucky that we have Caro here, and we're incredibly lucky that she is healthy and at home with us.  It didn't have to go this way, and we're all too aware of how fragile our good fortune is.

The truth is that if she were my first baby, I would being feeling smug and proud, like I earned this or made this happen.  It's true that I did everything I could to have a healthy pregnancy, sure, but I know better now. I don't want to call it a gift or a blessing, because I don't think that God doles out favors to some people and withholds them from others.  But I do believe that so many important things in life are out of our hands (which I, for one, find frustrating and infuriating!).  And I'm just so thankful that this time, things worked out beautifully for us.  Not because we deserved it (many, many people deserve this and don't manage to get it).  We know how freaking lucky we are.

I kind of expected that postpartum hormones would leave me awash in grief, but I think I cried a lot of that out last week (which make sense since I seriously cried at least three times a day).  I'm grateful for having cried all of those tears, because when I look at Caroline, I can't stop smiling.  (And that is a good thing, considering there are several stitches and some seriously sore nipples that might otherwise hamper the smiley face situation around here).

And now to the popular demand part of the post!  Photos!  This is the going-home-outfit photo stream.


Going home outfit

Realizing that we dressed in matching outfits

proud papa

in the car seat (which always makes us think of baby Addi)



27 comments:

  1. Makes my heart smile to know your car seat reminds you of Addi too. I know I think if Eliza as well when I look at ours (such good taste we have)! So thankful to have these little siblings using them, just wish their big sisters could have used them first.

    LOVE the pictures. Her going home outfit matching yours is too precious. Looking forward to reading and seeing more!

    PS
    I know the stitches and sore nipples are more than worth it, but I am feeling your pain!

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  2. Oh she is so prettily cute! Love your matching outfits too. Am so happy to see you happy and content. Wish you years and years of fun parenting!

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  3. I cannot stop looking at the picture of you and your girl (in matching outfits!)!! So, so happy for you and David. SO happy. She is gorgeous.

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  4. She is just the most gorgeous girl! So happy for you and David. I'm crying. I'm so happy.

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  5. I cannot wait to hold her! She is so cute and those cheeks are too cute! I am just bursting with joy for you all! Enjoy every moment because they change and grow so fast.

    Alby

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  6. Oh she is SO beautiful. Your dear, dear Caroline. And her outfit, and your matching outfit, is just too cute for words.

    Those same words will be spoken in my future birth stories too I suspect! Hope it was quick at least! Sorry about the stitches. Ouch.

    And I'm just so very, very pleased for you as you welcome your lovely second daughter into this world. Celebrating Caroline and remembering Eliza xo

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  7. Couldn't agree more with what you said and so happy that it did work out for you this time around. I love that carseat - we had the pack n play in that same patten but after we lost Cale Miles' brother Daren went to our house and put away all the baby things in to the nursery. In his frantic hurry he just rammed the pack n play through the nursery doors and broke it in the process. Now the thought of it makes me smile - as he was just distraught and trying to help us out that he didn't even think to collapse the thing first. Anyway, that sweet pattern also makes me think fondly about my goofy brother in law who we miss so much.


    Thanks for sharing these pictures - she is simply amazing.

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  8. These are so beautiful. That little baby outfit just took my breath away, and I sort of pride myself on finding the cutest stuff, but seriously, wow.

    She is gorgeous. Her face in that carseat, I just smiled, it was so cute!

    Stitches and nipples heal, but yeah, you're right, man they hurt!

    Here's praying that you have many days of kissing little Caro goodnight and awake. It's the best feeling in the world.

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  9. She is so perfect I can barely take my eyes off of her! She is simply beautiful! Such a sweet baby girl.

    I am so very glad you are soaking in every moment with your dear Caroline. You continue to give Matt and I hope, and I look forward to many sweet Caroline updates :)

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  10. Love her going home outfit and that car seat! I had wanted that one with Olivia too but Joe nixed it as too girlie in case we had a boy in the future (haha).

    I especially love the pictures of you guys holding her! I can see how overjoyed you are on your faces. I hope you have found some more healing in having Eliza's little sister safely here.

    Caroline is so perfect!

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  11. Why a cutie! I love that little hat she's wearing too. So glad you are home and Caroline is doing well :). I had a similar grief overload in the days leading up to delivery and then rush of gratitude and joy after, knowing that things can always go either way.

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  12. So happy for you guys!!!

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  13. She is so beautiful! Where did you find that outfit?! I just love it. I think my next birth story may involve "epidural, please!" as well. I can't wait to read the birth story!

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  14. So excited to see pictures and read your news!! Caroline Audrey is a beautiful name for a beautiful baby girl. Thinking of you and your Eliza.

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  15. She is adorable!!! Congrats mommy and daddy!!!!!

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  16. She is beautiful!! I'm over the moon happy for you!

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  17. My toes are curling over thinking about those sore nipples. Yeouch, the early days of nursing HURT.
    I have to say, that is just about the most adorable baby girl outfit I have ever seen, and absolutely perfect for your little lady. She's such a doll. Seriously squish able cheeks. I'm sure you spend a large part of your days now, simply squishing them. I know I would.
    Looking forward to hearing about how Caroline made her grand entrance, but realising there is no hurry. You rest up and enjoy your girl for now.
    Thanks for photo bombing us, we'd all been waiting.
    xo

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  18. Beautiful pictures and a beautiful baby girl! Thanks for sharing her.

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  19. She's beautiful and the pictures of you and David holding her are just lovely. Congratulations!

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  20. Oh my goodness she is gorgeous!!!! I've been behind on blogging and just saw the announcement. SO freaking thrilled for you guys! Enjoy that precious beautiful little girl my friend and those smiles, you deserve happy times! Lots of love to you and your family!

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  21. Love these photos. I especially love the photos of Caroline with you and her daddy - the love and happiness just shine from both of you.

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  22. So awesome. The new "What the duck" picture is my fav though :)

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  23. Congratulations again! Caroline is an old soul; it's in her eyes. She'll be a wise little one. She's simply beautiful and the photos with mommy and daddy are so sweet. This is one loved little girl and so is Eliza. Enjoy her!!

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  24. I want to hold her. I think I'll have to meet that little lady at some point this year... she's freaking gorgeous and I love that outfit she's wearing with that amazing hat!

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  25. Love those funny little faces. : ) And yeah, you just HAPPENED to be wearing an outfit that perfectly matched hers for the photos, right?? ; ) lol Love it!! You both look great!

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